NYE is always my least favorite holiday. It's not like I've never had a good time on New Years, but in general, I hate all of the build up that comes with it. It seems like one of those holidays where everyone expects you to have awesome plans, a sweet outfit, and a party where you get totally wasted on booze and champagne.
Here's my New Years experiences in a nutshell:
- A cabin party in Idaho where shotguns ended up being fired (from inside!)
- Chinese food and party at a good friends house with about 10 people (maybe my best New Years)
- Food carting and bowling with my ex boyfriend
- Hanging out at the house and watching the ball drop
- Skiing in Big Sky, MT and falling asleep before midnight
- A Fremont, Seattle scavenger hunt ending in a bluegrass band at a bar
I don't know. It's just never been anything special to me. I think I always want it to be something spectacular but, more often than not, I end up feeling sorta underwhelmed.
So, I'm not even remotely sure yet what I'll be doing this year. When I look back at that list I made, really I've had some good New Years. Maybe it's being single this year that amplifies my anxiety a bit. All I know is that I don't want to have nothing to do or be in a room by myself. When all your friends have significant others the likelihood of being alone seems to increase. It's not that I need a midnight kiss. I just want to be in a room with lots of people who are all present and not engulfed in their relationship or just wanting to go to bed and have sex at midnight.
I wish I even had some sort of back up plan for the holiday this year, but alas. I think I'll just be flying by the seat of my pants again.
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