So, I bought a ticket to Death Cab for Cutie when they are in Eugene on April 19th. I will have to head over right after I perform my show but I decided that I was just talking about how being alone shouldn't hold me back so I went ahead and bought the ticket. The truth of the matter is that I secretly hope I will run into people I know at the show so that even if I "go" alone I wont be alone during it. I'm sure I will enjoy it either way.
I wish sometimes that I was more of a reason for people to visit Eugene. None of my friends from before I moved have visited me here yet. Yes, I know there isn't much going on in this town but I am here! I like boardgames and wine, I like going out for a beer and some darts, shouldn't I be enough? I have felt lately like I have either been this shuttle for other people or for myself to visit other people. I wish that someone else was a shuttle to see me for once. That would make all of my shuttling more worthwhile. Or something.
I really don't have much to complain about. I think it is just that since I have decided to be here over the summer I really don't want to feel stuck here. I want to feel like Eugene is an enjoyable place to be and to visit. I don't want to shuttle back and forth to get away. I want to be present in my town and in my life.
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