Assessment of Meredith Ott's life and job skills

So, about that Teach for America thing. Yeah, I found out awhile ago about that. They turned me down flat out. No interview nothing. So either my essay writing sucks or they are just looking for something a little different than a privileged white girl with a Masters that really just wants to make a difference in education. Oh well.

Since then I must report that I visited Austin and found it much more to my liking than I had anticipated. I think I expected to not be too fond of anything Texas, but it really is not like the rest of Texas. It is Portland, but warm... and without the mountains and such.

I left thinking to myself that I could move there. Not that I want to live there for the rest of my life but that I would be fine in Austin for awhile. If I find a job there that I really want to go for I would take it.

I'm re-evaluating life right now. What do I want from my life? What do I want to do? How can I get to what I want to do? Where do I want to be? How far will I go for love? What do I need to be happy? I really wish I could say there was just one question floating around in my head but there are so many. I am comforted by the fact that a lot of people my age are also flying by the seat of their pants.

I have applied for so many jobs. I really think I've hit around 30 applications within the last year. I am not jobless otherwise I'm sure I'd be applying more. It really is discouraging though how few places you hear back from. It's as if a lot of time businesses already had someone else in mind or they assess you by something it says on a piece of paper about you. I have no idea anymore what people are looking for. Degrees don't seem to matter so much. Personality and people skills don't seem to matter. Do they just care about the formatting of the letter? Do they want you to have some sort of experience with a key corporation that they recognize? Do they need you to be a friend or relative of someone in the company?

I actually got an interview offer for the first time in my pile of 30 applications sent out this past year. It was a company in Austin called Austin Business Consulting. They wanted me to pop in for an interview this week. I had to decline, living in Portland, Oregon and all. Still, it was reaffirming to get the offer and be able to tell myself that if everything went to shit and I lost my job, I could get hired. It would not be and is not easy to get a job, but it is entirely possible. And I think it's possible to even find something you enjoy doing alright.

I WISH someone could tell me what the right thing to do was. I want to know the right job, where to move, what my career path should be. I guess I just kinda know I won't be at Northwest Children's Theater forever so I'm trying to figure out what the next step is. Whatever the next path may be.