Killing a helpless woodland creature and maiming my car and life in the process

Well, here it is folks, guess what I did tonight? After being pretty strapped for time and stressed out these past two days I saw the light ahead. I saw time to start getting future homework done, I saw opportunities to relax and hang out even if only for a little while, and then at the end of my 6:30am-9:30pm day I was driving my beautiful blue dream-car Subaru Forester home when bam.... it hit me, or more like I hit it; a deer. Yup, I always prided myself in living out in the woods and never having hit one and then today it happened. I had a complete stranger in my car to top it off (who I was giving a ride home from rehearsal). So now I am upset about the deer, upset about my maimed car which I will soon lose to repairs, upset about the loss of my free time, and upset about the loss of some sort of sense of stability for the moment.
Of course I can't really seem to think about homework anymore tonight. So, I think I might take a bath (my relaxant) and do some crossword puzzles while I try to sleep and not dream about dying deer.
God, I have such a guilty conscience right now. I keep going back and forth about whether to feel sorry for myself for adding the stress to an already packed life and feeling sorry for the deer which hobbled off into the woods. The deer, me, the deer, my car, the deer, me.

The Chocolate Chip Banana Pancake Party

Being Lucky yesterday morning was alright but I have to say pretty exhausting. I have a nasty bruise and scratch in the middle of my chest now too from falling on top of a suitcase. Whoops.
I was so exhausted after panting, carrying suitcases, and going on a rant onstage that I took an amazingly deep nap when I got home. And when I woke up from this amazing deep nap I thought to myself that what I really wanted more than anything for dinner was chocolate chip banana pancakes. So I got my friend Alex who was having kind of a bad day in on it too because chocolate chip banana pancakes can make anybody's day better. Then I realized, why not invite all my friends? So with the help of facebook and my phone I called, texted, and messaged people until it was a real working party at my house. Then we all decided that you can't really have a chocolate chip banana pancake party at night without some wine. So before I know it we have all drained at least 6 bottles of wine, eaten s'mores outside in my fireplace for dessert, climbed up onto my roof, sang songs around the fire, rocked out in my kitchen, played Apples to Apples, and pretty much just had an all around amazing night. So, the chocolate chip banana pancake party lasted from 5:30 to 1:00 am or so. Maybe later. I think it was the best last minute party I have ever been to. Also made me pretty excited about the summer because I was looking around and realizing that pretty much everyone at my house last night is going to be around this summer as well. Good times to come. And for sure, more pancakes.

Becoming "Lucky"

So many crazy things happening in my life lately. It's been good. Feel like I have learned and grown a lot. This is what the twenties and new experiences are all about right? This morning I am going to be doing a scene in front of a professor from Waiting for Godot by Samuel Beckett. If you don't know it, it is a very crazy existential play mostly about people waiting for something (perhaps God). I play this very random character in it called "Lucky" who is ordered around by another person all the time and carries lots of bags. I think the prof gave me the role in an attempt to try and embarrass/challenge me but I think mostly it has just been a really difficult role for me to come into.
I'm gonna go in today and slobber on stage, mess up my hair, look like an idiot, and go on a crazy rant. Lord knows how all of this will go over. I'll have to get back to you on this one.