So, I didn't do so well on that bracket thing. Yikes. Guess I will now owe Emma and Megan drinks. Thank goodness for friends.
Just coming out of a relationship, I think I have never felt so lonely. I don't really have all that many close friends here in Eugene and my family is a ways away as well. This has been a really rough week for me getting ready to put on a show and having lots of rehearsal hours, not having anyone really come to see me at opening night, and my back has felt tweaked due to wearing the corset. I might look into getting a professional massage. There is a spot in the middle of it that wont stop hurting. Has made it hard to sleep lately as I can't seem to get comfortable.
Well, enough complaining. Maybe not... this year has been fucking hard. The worst part is that sometimes it seems like life is just getting harder and harder. I suppose there are lots of great challenges out there for me right now, which is good. I just don't want to be sad anymore. I need to figure out a way to start celebrating my life more. I think it will be good for me to take a year off after grad school and find something that I really enjoy doing, and go to a place I really enjoy being.
A friend asked me today what it is that I want to do with my life. The truth is, I think, that I really don't know yet. Guess I'm still searching for some direction and hoping that it will come to me. Maybe I will take a year off to work at a restaurant and do theatre. Maybe then I will go and get my teaching certificate so I can try teaching at a high school. Maybe I will join the Peace Corps and go far away. Maybe I will go home.
Who knows. Who knows. Just keep floating on. That's all I know to do.